In My Cocoon

No light to be seen

Tightness all around

Hard to breathe

Alone hanging down

No one can see

The changes inside me

An excruciating transformation

A phenomenal creation

Mariposa

Never stop 

Mariposa

Aim for the top

Paciencia

Take your time

Esperanza

Hope's your lifeline

An old shadow of you

Will emerge from the new

Shedding what was

Revealing what is because

It cannot be hidden

Nor be denied

The being that has risen

Must take to the sky

Wait and see For What will be

A free lady Coming soon

Look to the trees Mounted with wings

Flying fearlessly Out of my cocoon

All The More

On this gloomy rainy morning

I hear you say to me

"As it comes down pouring 

My grace I give for free" 

I smile as I remember

The day my life began

You promised me forever

I gave you all I am

Your grace is like the air

I breathe in everyday

Your grace is like the rain

All sins are washed away

Your grace is like the sun

The light for all to see

Your grace is like the ocean

A depth unknown to me

On this cold and lonely evening

I hear you say to me

"As the stars continue shining

In you I'll always be"

I smile as I remember 

As many mistakes I make

Grace is more than ever

There to make it all ok

In my weakness, all the more

Grace increases, all the more

Blue Moon

And the moon stood still
Peeking through
My bedroom window

Enticing me to come
Luring me closer
Filtered by a curtain

It is a mysterious beam
Blurred, skewed
misunderstood

My heart beats faster
I contemplate its motive
Where will it take me?
What will it cause me to do?

Pull back the veil
A face appears
Kind and loving

A smile so shy
A tender moment
Between you and I

You look at me
I look at you
We both stand still
Not knowing what
To do

I kiss the night sky
So cool, crisp, divine
A warmth inside
Takes over
From my ears
To my toes

Deep breaths
To remind me
Of gravity
As my mind
Is elevated to you

I'm mesmerized
Hypnotized
By your glow
Your silent strength
Somehow you know

What I needed
What I wanted

I'm drawn to
Your energy
Your beauty
Your being
Your blue

SUDDENLY

Sometimes words come to me

Like a heartbeat; involuntarily

Or a lightning strike on a sunny day

An abduction of sorts, I’m forced to obey

Or a friend knocking on my door

Ready for adventure without calling before

I could say no to her last minute request

Or succumb to the curiosity of what I’d miss

An invitation I should just dismiss

But for the child in me, impossible to resist

She’d lead me down a path

I’d have never been before

Go into unknown places

Open random doors

Meet people I’d never think

Even existed or on the brink

Of disappearing for eternity

Voices and sounds

ears have never heard

Faces and colors

eyes have never seen

The things I experience in this realm

Often times leave me overwhelmed

But exhilarated at the same time

This magical world of rhythm and rhyme

Descends and ascends faster than

Anything else I can comprehend

Is it a curse or a blessing in disguise?

I’ll leave the answer for you to decide.

All I know to be absolutely true

Is that I wrote all this down for you.

A Gust of Destiny

I can taste the salty tears on my lips

They keep coming down

But my heart knows you are near

Your loving hands are always here

In this beautiful church

Of wood and gold and tall pointed arches

Violin quartet plays a classical song

That sweeps across the steeple

Elegantly dressed people

Of every color fill the pews

Here I sit in black and pearls

Sunglasses, red lips, dance shoes

Hungry, full of raw emotions

My hopes fluttering about

Like wild butterflies

Lost in unknown skies

My vision blurs; thoughts scatter

But here I am, alone but not

Through my tears my heart leaps

It sings of joy, future and possibilities

I must push forward

With all my might

Toward the direction of the wind

Led by the creator of everything

Time Warp

You know what I want

You know what I need

Why don’t you just

Give it to me?

You say that you will

It won’t be too long

But days turn into years

Smiles to tears

Sands of time

Slip through my fingers

Anticipation

Drowns me as you linger

Breathe in

Breathe out

Up high

Down low

Tick tock

On lock

Get set

Ready go

Taking your time

As if it’s on your side

Taking me for granted

Off on your joyride

In the blink of an eye

In the flash of light

Find me far away

Nowhere in sight

-September 2013

In Quick Sand I Stand

Sometimes I cry

Without knowing why

A grief from deep within

A place unknown to me

In solace I let the tears flow

Afraid to let them know

In restraint I brave a face

For the world outside

A pain that creeps in at

The most inconvenient times

Like an unexpected visitor

When the house is a pigsty

Like a sudden uncontrollable slumber

In the busy bright midday

A bitter cold breeze that engulfs your body

When strolling along the summertime sea

How do you deal? What do you think?

Ride it out like some violent wave

Or fight against it

like a sail to the wind

Sometimes I try to find the root of it

Sometimes I ignore it and think positively

But how can one cover a gaping hole

With paper-thin plaster?

For the time being

a skill that I must master.

A creeping cancer that ceases to desist

And so I melt, I give in

To the slumber, the wind

Goosebumps and all, I lay me down

As the sand comes all around

So quick, unapologetically, I am taken

Into the dark, abyss with no air

No light, no fight, no plight

No sight, alright,

This is it.

Exit

Shower Shift

Sometimes the rain

Is beautiful in a way

I cannot describe

From a soft misty fog

Where buildings disappear

To torrential storms

Where gutters overflow

How quickly life changes